letting go of the ghost inside and deciding to live (one last puzzle)

I am Casper Wyatt 

I am

I am afraid

But I'm also fearless

I am the girl who wishes she were a ghost

But is also afraid that's all she'll ever be

I am the girl who had a mental and emotional breakdown 

after the death of her dog. 

And still never shuts up about it

I am the girl who can never seem

to give people a strait answer

Not even on day one

So here's another puzzle

I am the girl who sings along to songs at midnight 

and cries as the lyrics turn to prayers

I am the girl who acts like a guy

Playing sports and video games 

and wearing her brothers hand-me-downs out of choice

I am the girl with 4 brothers 

and 2 sisters I almost never hear from

I am the girl who wanted to believe

From the very beginning 

After a short while I could tell 

that Santa and the tooth fairy 

and wishing on dandelions

and birthday candles were all a lie

But I wanted something to believe in

So I tied the blindfold myself

tied it so tight 

my eyelids couldn't even flicker open

But like all things 

one day it had to be removed

On the day my father left

But I still want to believe

So I'll still wish on the moon and stars

As I murmur the broken melody of my choral bible

I'm the girl with a police officer as a dad

And another one for a step father

I'm the girl held together by duct tape

And if you really want to know who I am

You'll have to follow this puzzle until the end

Line 7 letter 18

Line 9 letter 21

Line 10 letter 10

Line 14 letter 10

Line 16 letter 14

Line 17 letter 11

Line 22 letter 11

Line 27 letter 19

Line 32 letter 5

Line 32 letter 16

Line 33 letter 6

Line 35 letter 12

Line 38 letter 20

Line 41 letter 9

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