Mom and dad
No. Sorry.
Now it's
My mom and my dad
No sorry that's not right either
My mom
And
My dad
But that may not be entirely accurate anymore
Because not even 100 breaths between words
Sums up the distance between you
And it's been that way
ever since that
innocent.
cool.
summers day
Because no one celebrates divorce anniversaries
And now it seems like I am the only one who wishes people did
Because I know I've accepted the way our lives are now
But that won't stop me from wishing it didn't change
Because even though there is no constant war
over who's family we are spend thanksgivings day with
And no more threatenings of finding coal in our stockings on Christmas Day
Nothing could replace those cool summers days
And the last one ended at 12 in the afternoon
And even now I can feel the breeze
and the sun in my heart
like our lives were merely paused
But there is no resume button
and I'm starting to realize
maybe we just reached
a game over
Dude. Mallary. This is so freaking good.
ReplyDeleteThe divorce anniversaries and the coal and 12 in the afternoon and "merely paused" - oh man.
And then:
"maybe we just reached
a game over"
Dude. This is real. This feels so familiar. Thank you for writing this and sharing this.
I don't know, man. It just feels like you feel so acutely and you always write things that make me feel and I just love the feeling of almost tired longing for innocence in this and that's kind of sad, but sad things are also beautiful.
ReplyDeleteAlso I used the word feel way too many times in this comment.
This is really passionate. You conveyed your thoughts so eloquently. I loved it. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteBecause not even 100 breaths between words
ReplyDeleteSums up the distance between you
so great.