My wall started
in elementary school
When I realized
The opposite gender
no longer enjoyed my company
A brick for each person
who stopped talking to me
5
I added to my wall when
My dad said he was leaving
One brick for each day of middle school with out a normal family
1095
Makes 1100 bricks
One for each time my little brother insulted me
And one for each time I insulted him back
around 123
A brick for my first relationship
And another for each kiss we shared
Around 78
A brick for my first break up
And a brick for each day until I got over them
4
Making a 1305 brick wall
A brick for my mom getting remarried
And another for each time
I've been mad at him
5
A brick for the day I found out
my second boyfriend
was dating my best friend
And another for when I found out
he lied to her
1312 bricks
A brick for the person
who wouldn't leave me alone
Who believed there was no way
I didn't love them
And a brick for every day I had to put up with them
364
a brick for the day i finally told them i didn't
A brick for each day they ignored my existence
and pretended I wasn't right in front of them
14
A brick for the day you were jealous
and started talking to me again because I made a new friend
A brick because they were in a relationship
but I didn't want to tell you that
Making a 1694 brick wall
A brick for the boy who asked me to prom and then got a girlfriend a week after
A brick for the two people i couldn't go to homecoming with
because i was already in a relationship
A brick for each time I had to tell my brother I had a boyfriend
3
Making my current 1701 brick wall
But you made it through it all
You scaled the wall
And made it past my radar
And now I'm stuck
Letting you in
Your at the top
Just close enough
To see over
But far enough
To think I'm still a mystery
But I'm starting to fear
the wrong word
The wrong sentence
Will start to sound like a beckoning call
For after one step
You'll fall
You'll fall all too fast
And my wall will fall too
And there will be no going back
I won't be your perfect strong but fragile love
I'll be your broken
But fixed love
The kind held together by duct tape
I love this. And I also love your fish swimming around at the bottom of your blog.
ReplyDeleteFINALLY someone mentions the fish! I was testing them out and had too much fun so now they'll never leave. And thank you :)
DeleteI just love this to pieces.
ReplyDeleteI relate to this post a lot and I can't pinpoint why. Love it.
ReplyDeleteI hate the freaking fish. I waste too much time trying to feed them.
ReplyDeleteBut I loved this post.
"Letting you in." #stolen
Just this whole thing. First sentence. The whole part about being at the top, almost able to see over. And lastly the "I'll be your broken but fixed love
ReplyDeleteThe kind held together by duct tape." Seriously so good.
also the fish scared me and I thought something was on my screen... but I like them now:)