Saturday, November 1, 2014

Death, it's promises. Life, and it's betrayal.

Death

I don't like death 
Because it stole my best friend(dog) from me

I don't like life 
because it wouldn't fight to let me keep her

The worst part 
was knowing it was coming 

During her last few days 
she looked and sounded 
like she was in 
so 
much 
.
pain

So I prayed for life to make her whole

But life doesn't listen to me

So I bargained with death to dull the pain

As I stroked her soft copper ears and head clung to her 
And nearly bathed her with my tears

Death 
stopped the wheezing labored breaths 
the fits of coughing 
the limping 
And the cold 

Life let it go on 
for that I'll never forgive life

But I suppose 
I need to thank it for giving me 
the time I had with her.

So thank you 

Death 

I expect a lot from you

I hope you give me time to say goodbye
And don't take me before I'm ready

I hope you give me a story

Not one of those lame ones like tripping and falling down some flights of stairs 

If possible 
I'd like to save someone 
before you take me. 
And I'd like to be saved as well

Life

I can't say I'm overly fond of you

You took my parents' marriage away 
you moved me and my brother into different homes
You let my dog suffer 
and didn't fight for her life
You let my family hurt me 
from time to time 
You made me feel like a failure 
A ghost
And a lost cause 

One day you'll let death take my family
probably the hard way

And one day you'll let me go 

And I just hope on that day

Death can keep it's promises

Far better than you did.

5 comments:

  1. Uhhhhh, I cant even speak right now. Death and Life...Dark and Light...People are afraid of death and hate it with a passion. But what death does for us is relieves us of the pains that life has given us. Death brings peace to our misery and pain. It saves us. Life gives us trials and hardships we have to deal with. He is not very nice with trying to make our life easy. But Life puts us through things that we need to experience to make us stronger. I'm afraid of death...but at the same time... I'm not.

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  2. You made me feel like a failure
    A ghost
    And a lost cause

    Um can I just say how much I love the connection back to your pen name? I just kinda like that a lot ☺and yeah, the concept of life not keeping promises and death coming through for us was made so hopeful that it blue me away. So good

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  3. wow this just gave me the chills.

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  4. Wow. I'm speechless. This is everything. This is what it is.
    I don't know what it is, but I know this is it.
    Stellar.

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  5. Holy heck.
    This is so sad, honestly breaks my heart. Dogs are so hard to lose I'm serious.
    Really well done!

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